i think i'm going to have to break up with november.
we're just not good together, you know? it expects too much of me! i mean, three 15-page papers and 2 exams?? and that's on top of all the readings and scholarship applications! that's just not right. it's not good for my health. or my self-esteem. it's practically an abusive relationship - that's right, i said it, it is abusing me.
not that i don't care about it. i do. we had our good times. the pancake breakfast in high school. that girl's night in first year. the annual humanities christmas party is in november. yeah, we made some great memories together. but i don't know, these past four years, since i started university, every year it just gets worse and worse. i hung in there hoping it would get better. every year i would hope and pray that it would be different this time. but no. nothing changed. and there comes a point in a relationship where you have to take a good look at the reality of the situation and admit to yourself that it's going nowhere.
i'm just going to have to sit down with it, look it straight in the eye and say, "listen, it's not me, it's you..."