Friday, October 13, 2006

last night was thursday, which as we all know means GREY'S ANATOMY (woo-woo). meredith was dating two guys - shepard and fin - and she couldn't decide between them. then, last night, shepard tells her that fin is the better guy and that fin will make her happier. he says "i'm walking away."
so then, meredith, being the logical girl that she is, DUMPS FIN! [slap forehead] apparently shepard dumping her made her realize that he is the one...

here we find an excellent example of: will and reason in conflict ("do what i say"; "NO do what i say"; "you're desire, you know nothing anyway. PLUS you're changeable"; "you're reason, you're boring, and you don't move people"; "yes i do"; "no you don't"; "YES I DO!"; "NO"; "YES"; "let's take this outside"...["but it's cold outside"]).
she knows that shepard will hurt her again - he has SO MUCH baggage - and she know that fin will never hurt her. she knows all this in her mind. but in her heart, her will wants shepard anyway.
also, she only realized she wanted him when she couldn't have him anymore. did she really want him? or did she just want him because now she couldn't have him?
i saw this movie, "what the bleep do we know?" (sooo good - the love of my life) and in it they explained that you become addicted to your emotions. a chemical is released in your brain when you feel things and you become addicted to that chemical like a drug. so when you love someone, you don't love the person per se, you love the chemical they release in your brain. then when you lose that person, you go through withdrawal (like an addict trying to quit) and that is why it hurts so much. so meredith, when shepard left her, must have experienced withdrawal and decided she really wanted to be with him.

all this has resulted in...question 2 of my quest for human-ness: are we destined to want things we cannot have? i.e. do we only desire what is not there, and then stop wanting it once we have it because now we no longer lack it (you want something because you don't have it in yourself already. so when you do have it, do you not want it anymore?)
and is it naturally the case that your will and reason will be in conflict? i mean, is it just the flaw of human beings for them to not want what is good for them? or can you overcome it and try to get what IS good for you? is it natural to want what is good for you once you know that it is good for you, or it is not?

oh grey's anatomy, how do i love thee? let me count the ways...

3 Comments:

Blogger Massey said...

I KEEP MISSING GREY'S ANATOMY cuz i have class that night :(

waahhh :'(

11:54 AM  
Blogger bita said...

wha...? MISSING grey's anatomy? noooooo - drop the class, drop the class! ;)
actually, i have class that night too, so i get my sisters to tape it for me. lol.
hey, you have a sister...:D

3:46 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Bita

What is good? as some say there is no absolute good!
Our interpretation of 'good' changes both gradually and sometimes rather abruptly. There are some intangible 'things' which we can't thoroughly have a comprehension about all aspects of it, and once we try hard and we get that thing, and we see what is real about that 'thing' then, we might either keep liking as a 'good' thing or not.
are you asking me now what is real??..ok, I can answer that, too, i guess.but lack of time now lool
we'll talk about it soon.

CHeerO;

10:13 AM  

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