do this, do that
don't do this, don't do that
play this game, play that game
pull back, now take a step forward
now pull back again
smile, now frown
wear this, wear that
don't say that, don't tell that story
don't talk too much, don't be too quite
be mean, don't be nice
pretend
don't be yourself
will I ever be enough? just me...just ME?
why does God love me just for me, just like this, but you have to be convinced, tricked, persuaded, taught, trained...?