whatever...

i'm so happy anyways!

:D

i needed you last night.

there are so few times when i need you. i want you, yes. but i almost never need you. and then last night i really did. i was lonely. it was the first night. you know how it is the first night. remember? you told me yourself that you felt the same. so i can't be blamed for needing you. after all, it's times like these that really make it necessary, you know? otherwise, what's the point? anyone can be there all the other times. heck, no one needs to be there all the other times. but last night, i really needed you.

and you weren't there

i'm sick...

and writing a paper.
cough cough sniff sniff *head-ache*

but i will finish it today.
i've decided.

i left facebook!

i was writing this as part of the previous post, but i think, considering the huge significance of the event, it really deserves it's own post.

so, in keeping with my resolution for the new year, i deavtivated my account. that's right, i did it. omg i was spending my life on facebook. i have two papers to write over the break. i've been working on them since like the 15th of december...sigh...but it's been taking so long because i was spending most of my time on facebook. i'm COMPLETELY updated on everyone's pictures and/or relationship status' (stati?). i was lying in bed a couple mornings ago, laptop on my lap, doing what i always ( i.e. the last two weeks) do in the mornings (checking facebook), when i wandered off into the profile of the girlfriend of an acquaintance. after going through her profile pic album and right in the middle of the tagged pictures, i suddenly stopped!! "what am i doing??" i thought. i don't know this girl, nor do i think she is particularly pretty or anything special. why am i stalking her like a stalker?? i didn't feel like doing my paper, so i was wasting time on facebook instead. what made everything worse is that one of the paper is on people who know what the right thing to do is but don't have enough self-control to do it. the condmning, formal, and convoluted 6-line sentences of aristotle started swimming around in my head: "strong appetites," "weak disposition," "contradictory to reason," and so on. sooo, i took the balls by the bull and deactivated my account.
i feel relieved right now actually. and free. and kind of proud of myself, to be honest.

i don't think the withdrawal has kicked in yet. i'll let you know if i start shaking.

so last night - er, early this morning - i decided to restart my blog.

i was waaaay too tire to write more than what i did (see previous post).
i tried!
but, i won't lie, i fell asleep as i was writing it.
so i didn't get to write the most important thing: the resolution!

once again, my resolution remains the same...sigh...
i almost don't even want to say it. every year it's the same thing. every year i think, it's going to be different this year. this year i'll actually stick to it. this year i'll actually do it. this year i won't make the same mistakes. but every year, the same things happen. i don't stick to it. and i suffer.
BUT
this year really will be different! this year i'm going to take the advice of "The Secret" and think positively. i'll even reword it into a positive command! yeah, it's going to be great. i can feel it!

sooo...from "i will NOT, under any circumstance, procrastinate" this year i'm going to change my resolution to:
(da da daam)
(drum roll)
(dramatic pause)
I WILL MANAGE MY TIME WELL AND GET EVERYTHING DONE WELL IN ADVANCE!

booyakasha!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

january 1st 2008.
3 hours and 29 minutes - oh!! 30 minutes - into the start of the brand new year.
got back from a party like an hour and a half ago.
i'm so tired!
so, for now, all i will say is: 2008 WOOT-WOOT!!

i like even-numbered years...:D