WATCH THIS!!!

wow! this is soooo amazing.

The Secret (Laws of Attraction)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=csiAsbPxmmY&mode=related&search

it's such a liberating way to think!

now all i have to do is choose what i want...:D

it's a cruel cruel world we live in...

...well, reading week is over...

sigh

week assessment:
-deferred exam => done and done! [celebration dance]
-dentist appointment => cancelled (thank God and a half)
-driving exam => let's just say i'm now officially a fully-licensed G-level ontario driver (out-of-province highways - heck, highways in general - here i come!)
-presentation due tomorrow => well, it is now 2:05 am and i'm still awake. what's more, i'm updating my blog...so...that means...i'm uhh working on it (don't worry - i HAVE a thesis)
-science lab write-up => i have to see the TA about it before i can do it (hey, there is a reason i'm in philosophy, ok??)
-100 papers to grade => have marked cough 73 cough (they are due friday, don't worry)
-planning the humanities formal => we now have a dj!! woot-woot!
-papers => oh God, let's not talk about that...but to sum up the situation in three words: 'The Great Depression' (i'm expecting World War III to break out soon)

PLUS, i did manage to catch up on american idol...so i would say it was productive week...

not that i wouldn't LOOVEEE another week, but as a wise-woman once told me, "too bad for you."


there is now only one more month left of my undergraduate career...wow

yes! yes! and thrice yes!!

it is now OFFICIALLY reading week...woot-woot!!

i'm vair vair excited about this!
despite having a deferred exam on monday.
and a dentist appointment on tuesday.
and my driving exam on thursday.
and a presentation that is due the day we get back to school.
and a lab write-up.
and 100 papers to grade.
and planning the humanities formal.
and of course the never-ending papers.

yes, i have a feeling it's going to be a good relaxing week off...

fight! for your right! to stay awake!!

the greatest force that can act against you and completely immobilize you is sleep.
i can't stay up. i'm trying to study and instead i'm doing the head-bang - you know, where you're sitting there, minding your business, trying to work, and instead the force of sleep keeps pushing your head down. so it descends slowly slowly until the point where you realize you're actually NOT in your comfortable bed and you're actually NOT allowed to go to sleep yet because you actually DO have a midterm tomorrow that you actually WILL fail if you go to sleep...so your head jerks up, and stays up for about a second of you life until the whole vicious cycle starts again.
this scientific phenomenon, occuring most often around exam time, is apparently referred to as "nodding off" as my friend kim points out to me each time i tell her i was doing the head-bang at some place where it was very inappropriate for any heads to be banging. but anyways: nodding off, heads banging, eyes taking on a life of their own and refusing to stay open => it's all the same condition. and it is a serious one. one which surprisingly has not been considered until now, but that needs to be remedied. the danger of this threating enemy cannot be ingnored any longer!
we humans are losing the fight against sleep and it needs to stop. it's time we reclaimed our ability to control our body parts.

what do we want?
NO MORE HEADS BANGING
what else do we want?
NO MORE EYES SHUTTING
what else do we want?
ICE CREAM
no, i meant regarding this situation.
OH...UM...NO MORE SLEEP?
no no, we want sleep, just not at inconvenient times - oh nevermind. when do we want it??
NOOOWWW

[this message brought to you by the government of bita's brain]

p.s. or maybe we could just abolish midterms??

"I bet we walk past each other every day. Tomorrow I'm going to say hello."

hello virtual world of blog-land. it has been 12 days since my last confession.

i have never been more busy in my life than i am at this very moment. there are so many things i have to do that i have become immobilized. it's ironic, at a time when i most need to DO, i am most unable to, and least want to. the fear and the pressure of the weight of life are getting in the way.
2 more months - will i make it?? it's weird that i'm seriously wondering...

what is happening to me?? i feel like i'm regressing in my quest. reality is making me into the Hobbesian human being. appetites and aversions. matter and motion. competition. is that all there is??

concentrate on solutions, not problems.
my dad told me that today.
ok.

i'm going to dance.